The star, 31, who is expecting her first child with husband of two years art gallery director Cooke Maroney, spoke to Vanity Fair about the experience which saw her praying ‘that she would not lose her hair’ and that her dog would survive.
While conceding: ‘I know, flying private, I deserve to die’, she remembered how the air pressure in the cabin dropped and she discovered one of the plane’s two engines had failed during the flight with her two brothers.
Pained: Jennifer Lawrence recalled her near-death experience when she was flying from her hometown of Louisville, Kentucky to New York City by private jet in Summer 2017
Jennifer insisted she knew she would then die, saying: ‘My skeleton was all that was left in the seat. We were all just going to die. I started leaving little mental voicemails to my family, you know, “I’ve had a great life, I’m sorry”.’
When asked why she apologised, she explained: ‘I just felt guilty. Everybody was going to be so bummed. And, oh, God, Pippi was on my lap, that was the worst part. Here’s this little thing who didn’t ask to be a part of any of this’.
After seeing the runway packed with emergency services, she went on: ‘I started praying. Not to the specific God I grew up with, because he was terrifying and a very judgmental guy…
‘But I thought, ‘Oh, my God, maybe we’ll survive this? I’ll be a burn victim, this will be painful, but maybe we’ll live. Please, Lord Jesus, let me keep my hair. Wrap me in your hair-loving arms. Please don’t let me go bald’. ‘
Pain: The star, 31, spoke to Vanity Fair about the horrendous experience which saw her praying ‘that she would not lose her hair’
She revealed that soon after she was forced to board another plane – with the help of a pill and a strong drink. She added: ‘It made me a lot weaker. Flying is horrific and I have to do it all the time.’
She also spoke of the never-ending trauma surrounding the 2014 iCloud leak that saw her private nude pictures published on the internet.
She said: ‘Anybody can go look at my naked body without my consent, any time of the day. Somebody in France just published them. My trauma will exist forever’.
As well as the trauma of the hack, Jennifer also touched on her name being dragged into Harvey Weinstein‘s lawsuit, after the disgraced movie boss took a quote from the star out of context to use in his legal defense against sexual assault claims.
Her love: Jennifer is pictured with her beloved pet dog Pippi (Jennifer and Pippi pictured in 2016)
In 2014, Jennifer and a host of other stars were left traumatised when hackers broke into her iCloud and posted nude photos online on August 31.
Speaking about the hack, she said: ‘Anybody can go look at my naked body without my consent, any time of the day. Somebody in France just published them. My trauma will exist forever.’
Continuing in her discussion on consent, she spoke about how in 2018, Weinstein’s legal team used a quote from Jennifer – out of context – to try and dismiss racketeering charges brought against him by six women.
On being quoted as saying: ‘[Weinstein] had only ever been nice to me’, she angrily rhetorically asked: ‘So how could he possibly be a rapist, right?’
The disgraced movie producer also explosively lied: ‘I slept with Jennifer Lawrence and look where she is; she has just won an Oscar.’
Her love: Jennifer, 31, is expecting her first child with her husband of two years art gallery director Cooke Maroney
On the scenario, she said: ‘Harvey’s victims were women that believed that he was going to help them. Fortunately, by the time I had even come across Harvey in my career, I was about to win an Academy Award. I was getting The Hunger Games…
‘So I avoided that specific situation. Of course, I’m a woman in the professional world. So it’s not like I’ve gone my entire career with men being appropriate. But, yeah, that’s a perfect example of where getting power quickly did save me.’
Aside from her terrifying experience, Jennifer also spoke about her return to the spotlight after stepping down to prevent her ‘people pleasing’.
She said: ‘I’m so nervous. I haven’t spoken to the world in forever. And to come back now, when I have all of these new accessories added to my life that I obviously want to protect. I’m nervous for you. I’m nervous for me. I’m nervous for the readers!’
Speaking about life before she withdrew from the spotlight, she said: ‘I was not pumping out the quality that I should have…
Shock: As well as the trauma of the hack, Jennifer also touched on her name being dragged into Harvey Weinstein’s lawsuit, after the disgraced movie boss took a quote from the star out of context to use in his legal defense against sexual assault claims (Jennifer and Weinstein in 2014)
‘I just think everybody had gotten sick of me. I’d gotten sick of me. It had just gotten to a point where I couldn’t do anything right. If I walked a red carpet, it was, ‘Why didn’t she run?’… I think that I was people-pleasing for the majority of my life.’
Jennifer also touched on keeping her child out of the spotlight.
She said: ‘If I was at a dinner party, and somebody was like, ‘Oh, my God, you’re expecting a baby,’ I wouldn’t be like, ‘God, I can’t talk about that. Get away from me, you psycho!’…
‘But every instinct in my body wants to protect their privacy for the rest of their lives, as much as I can. I don’t want anyone to feel welcome into their existence. And I feel like that just starts with not including them in this part of my work.’
Read the full cover story, ‘A Happy New Year’ by Karen Valby in Vanity Fair’s December issue and on VanityFair.com
Shock: The disgraced movie producer also explosively lied: ‘I slept with Jennifer Lawrence and look where she is; she has just won an Oscar’ (Jennifer and Weinstein in 2013)